Untitled (Oneshot)

Author's Note: So yeah, I've no title for this one yet.. (T-T) And as always, this is BL a.k.a Boys' Love. Don't ask why, it's quite a long story... and it'll probably take me a couple of paragraphs to explain. And yeah, as indicated, this is just a oneshot, so please don't expect too much from it. Anyway, there you go, enjoy reading. (^_^) Pardon me for any grammatical error you may find...

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I like him. There’s just no denying it. I love him, even. But here’s the catch, I’m a guy… and yeah, he’s a guy, too. So yeah, you pretty much get it, right? But guess what, there’s more… we’ve been together the whole of our lives—best friends as you may call it. Tough, no?

“Hey.”

Speak of the devil. I looked up and saw him. He sat down beside me and passed me a can of soda. Here we are, just like always, ditching class again… hanging out at ‘our’ rooftop.

My name’s Mira. And the guy I’m in love with slash the guy who is also my best friend slash the guy sitting beside me is Taku. We’re just your average students—not so flashy nor nerdy, idiotic at times, like to ditch classes, create ruckus and stuff like that. We’ve been always together since we were born. That’s what you get when your mothers are best friends and neighbors… it just gets passed down, I think. We practically grew up with each other on our side. And I know we both really like that.

“Hey Mira.”

“Yeah?”

“What are you thinking of?” Taku asked me as he sipped on his drink and looked up at the sky.

His question caught me off guard. I looked away and thought of what to say. I just can’t probably say I’m thinking of him, can I? Much more so that I’m actually thinking of us… I doubt I could say that.

“Nothing that important. Why?” I simply opted for the safe answer—vague ones.

“Do you want to know what I’m thinking of right now?”

“Yeah, sure. Go ahead.”

He looked at me in the eyes and said, “You.”

Eh?! Did I hear that right? D-do-don’t tell me… he… Taku… My mind went blank and my heart stopped. I couldn’t react immediately and I only managed to utter, “Huh?!”

He burst out laughing and simply said, “Just kidding Mira.”

I let out the breath I didn’t notice I was holding in. Well, of course. He, Taku, how could he possibly be? It’s just impossible, isn’t it?

Taku further added, “I was thinking of what to eat later for dinner, you ass. Don’t tell me you really believed that?”

“Haha. Of course I wouldn’t. I already know you, Taku,” I laughed dryly. Somehow, I couldn’t help but feel little stabs of pain in my chest. What was I expecting anyway? Well of course it’s given… there’s just no way he would feel the same as I do. No freaking way.

“Taku!” Somebody called from behind us and we turned to look. Ah, Inoue.

“Hey,” Taku acknowledged her with a nod and a wave of his hand.

Inoue. Bitch. Gods I hate that girl. And yeah, I haven’t said anything about Taku going out with anyone, right? Well guess what, FYI, Inoue’s the one. I don’t know how they came to know each other and how they ended up seeing each other. But yeah, I hate her guts. Actually, scratch that, I just don’t hate her guts. I hate her very existence… her mere presence. Ugh. Of course I’d hate anybody who’s going out with the man I love, but Inoue? My hatred for her is just indescribable. To put it simply, she’s basically the girl who I will strangle to death if not for Taku liking her. I’m not even sure if it’s like or anything. I don’t know. Damn you Taku, why did it have to be this girl?

“Hey Mira, you okay if I leave now?” Taku asked me as he got up.

“Sure go ahead. Enjoy,” I answered back and faked a smile. I’m pretty sure my smiles—fake or not—always work, with Taku, at least.

“Hai. See you around, then.”

Taku waved me a goodbye as he walked up to Inoue. He put an arm around her waist and they began walking away. They were all lovey-dovey, clingy and stuff. I stared at their backs for a while, thinking of nothing in particular. As I was about to look away, Inoue looked back at me and smirked, as if saying, “Back off, he’s mine.” I recognized that smirk of hers. It was exactly like the one she gave me when Taku introduced me to her. Ugh. She’s really a bitch.

After they were gone, I lied down and stared at the sky. I wonder why Taku went out with her. Because he likes her? Lusts for her? Because of her breasts? Her waist? Her hair? Damn it. I just really wanted to know.

I sighed and closed my eyes. I remember I heard once in a movie, “What’s greater than the agony of being in love?” I have an answer to that question now. It is being in love with a person of the same gender. You don’t stand a chance… and even if you do, there are still many things that will prevent the two of you from being together. Society, people, and even yourselves. Sucks, right? Well I guess Taku and I couldn’t really be more than what we are now, could we?

My phone vibrated and I checked to see who sent the message. It’s from Taku. Strange, that guy usually doesn’t send messages unless it’s important. I hurried to check the message, wondering what it could be. My eyes widened at what was displayed on the phone’s screen.

‘Don’t be lonely without me. Among all my friends, I like you the most. – Taku’

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“That isn’t right, is it?” I heard a mocking voice beside me.

“This is none of your business, Inoue,” I said to her, snapping my phone shut. I just finished sending a message to Mira and I’m guessing she read if not a portion of it, all of it.

“Shut up Taku. And it’s not just ‘among all my friends’, right?” Inoue said before stopping in her tracks and grabbing my face down to hers. She pulled me in a kiss, aggressively and at her own pace. It’s always like this and I’m sick and tired of this shit… but I can’t do anything about it… I know I can’t do anything about it.

She let go of my lips and whispered in my ear, “It should be ‘among all the people in this world’, shouldn’t it?”

I sighed and tried to start walking again but she grabbed my arm.

“Remember that I’m the one you’re going out with, Taku. Don’t ever try to defy me and my wishes. Or else…” Inoue leaned in to whisper threateningly, “Mira will know that you like him.”

I glared at her and she just looked at me triumphantly.

“Now, you don’t want your dear little Mira to know that you’re gay, do you?” She continued to mock me and my feelings. “How noble of you Taku. Just to protect your beloved, you’re willing to do anything? Even go out with someone you don’t like?”

I couldn’t say anything. She was right. It was the truth. I’m going out with someone I don’t like just to protect Mira. It’s foolish, I know. But I love him. I’d do anything for him. I would.

Inoue laughed, obviously knowing Mira’s my vulnerability. She kissed me once again and said, “You would go out with me. You would hug me, you would kiss me and you would sleep with me. You will do all the things I say because you like Mira… keep that in mind, Taku… keep it imprinted in your mind.”